Hi Elaine. I am so sorry for your loss. Several years ago my husband lost one of his still close childhood friends to ALS (Lou Gehrig's Disease) and just recently I lost one of my best friends to complications due to a pituitary gland condition she was born with. I vacillate from so many different emotions, each a shade of sad and/ or mad these days over her loss. Yeah, suppressing things isn't a good course of action, I agree. Though sometimes the emotions are so overwhelming, I don't know quite what to do either.